In Response to My New Reader :-)

I know how you feel. Sometimes I just want to punch out a boulder because of people and their unreliabilty. It's because of this that I've given up on them and barely give anyone more than half a chance. Too much disappointment has taught me that disappointment is not worth my energy so I begin as a cynic in all situations. This way, my beliefs are either always confirmed or I am pleasantly surprised. It's worth the pleasant surprise.

A lot of people think that this isn't a very good philosophy and automatically label it 'pessimistic' but I will continue to disagree. It's realistic and since I've adopted it, I've been a much happier person (although people would tend to disagree with how 'happy' I really am--they haven't known me for very long if they disagree). Nevertheless, it all still frustrates me because getting things done yourself puts a burden that feels unnecessary upon a person and despite my cynicism, I still would like to have some fulfillment of the faith I still hold in humanity, particularly those parts of it I consider "friends."