Today is the last official day that I live with my parents. And the day is over. We're leaving tomorrow at some ridiculously early time (like 4 fucking 30 am). I really hope it's not that early. I'm going to die if it's that early because...I can't function then.
Anyway, Sam and Noah have been having bouts of misery breakdowns all evening.
"I don't want you to go!"
"What are we going to do without you?"
"What am I going to do with just Mom at home??"
Etcetera, etcetera, etcetera.
Sam is up right now because he's low...59. Ick. So he's eating. Farting all over the place, too and telling me that apparently his fart goes well with the calendar he's looking at because scuba divers have "all kinds of equipment that creates gas bubbles". *sigh* It's all he ever thinks of. Gas. Methan in particular.
Well, I guess this is the moment when I leave it all behind for better or worse. I really think it's better this way. Distance can be a friend sometimes, for some situations and there's one in particular that I don't know how to deal with right now, so not dealing with it seems great and everything's falling into place for that...so no excuses necessary.
Really, though, I'll miss my friends a lot. I saw Emma today for the last time for a while. I played her the new song and she got all teary-eyed (even though she wouldn't admit it...I totally saw it). Emma and Mark. I think I'll miss them the most. I was closest to them and they were both there for most of the time...even if one of them was being an ass. Now, I wonder, will I really know them in a year? Two years? Five years? Ten years? Will they fade into the past while others who go unnoticed now surprisingly stay in the picture? I hope they don't. Of all people, I hope they never fade. Or I for them. But I guess with friends, it works both ways or not at all, so of course it's them for me and I for them. And now I'm rambling because my feet hurt and my mind is shot and I've been packing all day.
Sam just gave me this amazingly sweet good-night kiss and told me he'd email me tomorrow. (And so it begins...) Well, I don't think I'll be able to blog for a little while, because I'll be on the road and busy busy with family (lovely) and meeting Charlie! I'm excited about meeting Charlie. Hmm...well we have to make it to New Jersey by tomorrow evening, and I want to get there early so I can see Carloyn and Ariana (best aunt ever...coolest cousin, too). :-D
So I'm going to sleep. I will update when I get the chance. I love all of you guys!
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