A minute left and I'd still be smiling.

If you wait long enough, wishes really do come true. They come so true all doubt vanishes and you're left with nothing but that absolutely unadulterated bliss.

I never really believed that this could happen. That there really is someone out there for everyone that's a perfect fit. And maybe that's not even it. Maybe it's more I never really believed there was someone out there who was a perfect fit for me. And perfection isn't necessarily perfect, but the way you work towards it in every moment because whatever you have is too wonderful to ever let go.

For the first time in my life, I really trust something. I trust it more than anything. I would give up everything for it. Everything. I can turn off the words because they're too selfish for this. I can lower the volume on the voices because they're too loud for this and I can't stand it when I'm the cause of greatest horror or absolute grief in this case. Because they circle around and hit me with more guilt than ever so I STOP. I STOP.

Turn in a new direction and it's beautiful. Whatever this is, it's beautiful. Like the perfect bond. That indestructable bond. That's beautiful. And you know I live for beauty. You know I live for those brief instances of beauty that make up for all the pain. Only this moment, this instant isn't a moment or an instant. It's always. And I can hardly contain it. I don't know what to do with it.

Smile and nod and go with it. Because I can't run away. And I don't want to anymore. I can't entice myself to run away. So I radiate and I stay. And I look in the mirror and for the first time in my life I know I'm part of something beautiful. Because it's not just that I'm making someone smile for a moment. I'm changing them. I'm making them happy, too, in the same way they're making me.