Perpetual fighting seems to be the menu for now. It's very frustrating and I can't stand it. I suggested a two week break from each other but that was rejected. So I'll do it myself. I did it with Mark. I'm doing it with Anthony that fuck.

James decided he's not coming with me to NY/NJ. Which is fine. It's just the way it happened that ticked me off. All his "let's talk about it" shit doesn't get us anywhere. And why does he continue to work at it when it's so frustrating? I'm so frustrated I can't stand it. Yes, I'm happy. But I'm upset and frustrated. And right now the frustration is winning over everything else.

At least I started that stinking paper for Short Story.

So starting NOW: let's see if I can make it until Wednesday next week. So until break is over.